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I was debating whether or not to discontinue my 365 since it seems kind of redundant for me to dump 30 photos in 1 day every month.. Feels more like the "12-Month Photo Project" now, instead of a daily thing.





However. I acknowledge that I'm sharing art and I feel like all kinds of art have the potential to influence and inspire others to create something beautiful. I looked back at a photo I have in my gallery, and found a comment left by a visitor. It was wonderful. I never thought I could invoke such emotion in another person before with just a photograph, not words.



I've been so harsh on my own work. Nothing I take satisfies me completely. I always want the colours to somehow be brighter, but not saturated to death with a computer; I want the edges to be SO crisp and clean-cut; and sometimes it's just because I had the wrong camera with me and I'm unable to take the photograph that I had originally wanted to take. I just feel frustrated not liking my own work. I want to achieve such quality works, even though I've only picked up my camera for almost a year now (I think it's been.. 9 months so far?).

The only answer here is to practice like hell, which is why I'm deciding to continue my 365 Photo Project Challenge. It forces me to practice my photography, and I suppose I really need that. I guess I'm just impatient and I want to achieve perfection. Sometimes I do get a good shot, and I would genuinely like it for a few days. But the problem with me is that I get tired of looking at the same photos over time (and this happens when I'm editing or going over old photos for references), and I'll start to hate it and start criticizing everything about it; I'll think the colour's off, it could be darker/brighter, the contrast/saturation could be higher, and/or I should've made it more crisp and not as blurry.

I guess I placed my standards way too high? Not every submission for 365 should be perfect. I have friends who are currently doing their 365 (or have already done it) and all I see is random object like a pencil or toothbrush (I'm not even kidding). I honestly feel like they're not even trying and they're just posting whatever they had on-hand (literally) at the moment just to fill in the blank. What I post is what inspires me. I guess it just makes me frustrated knowing that I get criticism from others when I'm trying so hard to produce quality work instead of just taking a random photo with my iPhone, dumping it into Instagram and letting the artificial filters do their work instead, then posting up a desk and table and calling that "art".. and THEN having it being favoured over my work when I know it took them almost NO effort to produce that photo.

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Anyway, the most important thing is that I will continue my photography. I don't quite want to, to be honest, because I get so disappointed in myself with what I produce, but at least... at least.. every landscape photo can be useful as a desktop wallpaper.. ;___;